Thoughts on Not Going to School
Being sick is your body’s way to tell you to get to rest. I dont know why I’m having frequent headaches and drooping eyes lately, but at least I’m a little bit okay now. Still I don’t really like to go to schoooooool. Since, Wednesday isn’t really MY DAY. Always.
Kay high blood ko pirminte ani na day. I mean, di ko ganahan jud na ingon ani ang setting sa classroom, na gubot kay ang lab. Like, sa kadaghan na tao, gamay ra kaayo ang mulihok. And, naa pa jud prof nga asdfghjkl.Hayssssss >.< Ginaconsume among time tanan! Ipabalik-balik walay clear na instructions! And naa pa selfish people. >.<
I wanted this class to end alreadyyyyy! Gaaaaaaah.
Thoughts on a Filipino Assignment.
As though I used up all my words, my mouth opens and closes and nothing comes out. As though I used up all my thoughts, my right hand writes and erases, and I’m left with a page blank.There are times when we get lonely and upset and we don’t like to tell other people. Sometimes we like to keep it as a secret. And maybe, this is one of those times. Yet, sometimes we are sad but we really do not know the reason why, and so we just simply say that we aren’t, but the truth is we are.
And so, I wrote:
“Dahil ang higit na nakakapagpabagabag sa aking damdamain ay kung papaano ko mamahalin at pagkatiwalaan ang aking sarili”.
Ayah’s crib. It feels like a decade since I visited this blog, since school has been dragging us away from the virtual world. It’s my free day today, and I just love this day so much since I had a 12-hr straight for the first time and Ayah made some brownies, I went to their house to eat. >:) Caressa and Ayah are doing their case study presentation, while I’m just here chillin’ :>
“There ain’t no way you can hold onto something that wants to go, you understand? You can only love what you got while you got it.” ― Kate DiCamillo
"Pain will leave you, when you let go."
“If you want to forget something or someone, never hate it, or never hate him/her. Everything and everyone that you hate is engraved upon your heart; if you want to let go of something, if you want to forget, you cannot hate.” ― C. JoyBell C.
Blink away the tears, walk forward. Even if the first step hurts, believe that everything will be okay. because someday it will. be strong. and remember that the end of one hurtful thing in your life is usually an indication that the start of some truly amazing thing to come. let go. *hugs*
The search for a Thesis Adviser
I guess thesis is the most anxious thing to think about when it comes to college. It is a one-way ticket to graduation, the secret password to unlock the following chapter of your life. And at the moment, I did not anticipate myself of thinking about this already, because it felt silly, it felt like yesterday I was that, frightened ‘freshy’ who had first walked into a new world, which is nothing new by now. I think almost half of my blockmates have already decided and have already chosen that one person, who would be the instrument and will play a substantial role in their college life. I think almost half have already found their ticket seller, the assurance who would guarantee their right of passage to the place that lies behind the locked door. As a Biology (General) student, we have a long list of options, whether to focus on Systematics, Developmental Biology, Parasitology, Behavioral Biology and Microbiology. And as obvious as it seems to be, my heart always leaped up for Microbiology and feels a connection to that one professor that I’ve always heard of as strict, demanding, and *insert* all the adjectives here that could be synonymous with the word terror. But the thing here is, would I really challenge myself and opt to choose this profound field of study, which is handled by meticulous professors that I look up to? Or would I let go of these things that interests me? Can I handle the demands of my favorite field or could I not make it? Well, I hope I can, because for now it is the one and only option I got. So help me God.
Jan 14, 2014, 7 am. I love it when it rains and I hear raindrops. I love it when it rains and I tuck myself into sleep at night. I love it when it rains, and I stare out the window, remembering the good old days when I used to sing ‘Rain rain go away’. But not this kind of rain, that makes me shiver, the rain that has been stuck in this place for quite sometime, the rain that would suspend classes. It felt like I’m looking and living into a black and white panorama, the sky is still dim and black, and the sky fairies have somehow forgotten to paint the sky.
I don’t know, but one of these days, my braces will bid their goodbyes. A part of me wants them to go already, but a part of me wants them to stay. I’ll surely be missing them. Advance Happy New Year to all! :)
Red + Green Day. I just want to pass by and say Merry Christmas to you and your family. God bless us all :)